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Emboldened by Nob's letter to the Brettosaur (sp?), I think I'm going to make one of my own. In some ways this feels VERY MIDDLE SCHOOL, but in other ways, it's sort of my way of getting past the tension (which I would never have had the balls to do as a very young, very stupid, very shy teen). I keep thinking about him and dreaming about him and I would REALLY, REALLY like to date him, but I keep waiting for him to make the first move.

Abby, he's Japanese. He will never make a move. Ever. Ever. Ever.

Ever.

I mean, yeah, he's lived in the States for 10 or so years, but now he's back in Japan and he's being re-Japanized or something slightly ominous like that.

He used to say 僕 (boku). Now he says 俺 (ore). I liked the "boku" self-reference better because it was cuter. I teach 300+ "ore-sama's" each week--I don't want another one.

When he was asleep on the floor of my apartment last month, I was going to kiss him awake, but Aya was there and I thought that might be a little weird. I was gonna ask if he wanted to take a shower, or was it alright if I went on ahead and took one, but he didn't wake up. I pulled on his earlobe and brushed my fingers along the side of his face, but he didn't wake up (which makes me wonder if he was awake the whole time and was just enjoying the attention).

Boy, I wanted to kiss him awake so badly.

I think I'm going to very, very, very gently make it more than absolutely obvious (as if I wasn't before) that I'm into him.

Although, it is kind of scary and if he doesn't feel the same way, I don't want him getting all weird on me. I'm totally cool with it if he doesn't like me that way, but he may not be. And I really like being friends with him (even platonically), and I don't want to lose that. We're so goofy-fun together. He likes Disney movies (like every other Japanese guy I've ever met), I like him: we're perfect!

Everybody keep your fingers crossed for me that this doesn't get all weird.

::holdingherbreath::

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morganlight
Apr. 14th, 2004 09:57 pm (UTC)
::cheers you on!::
::good influence:: heh.
And yes, you spelled Brettosaur correctly. :P
ardarys
Apr. 15th, 2004 02:27 am (UTC)
woot! good luck!
impishlaugh
Apr. 15th, 2004 09:01 am (UTC)
You pulled on his earlobe? That's the sweetest, cutest, most affectionate thing I can think of. That's better than wakeup kisses!

*crossingmyfingers*
alexakaruda
Apr. 15th, 2004 11:39 pm (UTC)
Well, I was gonna gently bite his earlobe or kiss it, but I figured--with my friend Aya there--that it might get a little weird.

I've always been into exploring the "non-obvious" areas of people's bodies.
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