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He can make me go from giddy silly girly to raging angry goddess to happy confused in the span of half an hour.

I am way more emotionally invested in this than I ever planned to be. He more than meets me halfway, and as exposed as I am without my old games for tying someone to me, it's strangely refreshing to be with someone I don't know how to handle. I don't know what his buttons are or where to find them. I don't know how to make him love me, but he does, so I guess it doesn't matter. I can't use my old tricks like beautiful words to woo him because English isn't his native language and my lovely lexicons are lost on him. I have no veils, I have no puff of smoke. It's just me, bare and pure and whole. And in spite of that, he loves me.

I refuse to use the word "keeper" because we've only just started this relationship, but there are things about him that are such new experiences for me and I love how he keeps me guessing....

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lalenalefay
Mar. 23rd, 2005 11:32 am (UTC)
that's so awesome and thoughtful! i'm excited for you.
alexakaruda
Mar. 24th, 2005 12:20 am (UTC)
Thank you! I'm excited, too, except for the fact that he's moving to Tokyo on Sunday. >_< And I'm leaving the country in August.

Btw, I've been voting on that public juried art show thingy you put a URL up for awhile back. I think I've been voting on and off for the past 2 days now. There's SO much stuff on there! I was really surprised at how many pieces they have. And there're a lot of really talented artists who've put stuff up. Congrats on getting your stuff in there!
impishlaugh
Mar. 23rd, 2005 01:59 pm (UTC)
Oh weird. I posted the "keeper" comment BEFORE I read this. Weirded out.

You guys are cute because you remind me so much of me and Matt when we first got together. He was used to fighting all the time and things being very emotional, and when I didn't make possible-fights into fights it confused the hell out of him.

He just... LOVEs you. Wow. *sigh* I am such a girl.
alexakaruda
Mar. 24th, 2005 12:17 am (UTC)
Tee hee! ^_^ I keep butting my head up against the fact that I haven't been able to use any of my usual tricks to attract him and yet he still loves me. Wtf?! It just doesn't make any sense. I'm so out of my element here because I have absolutely no control over him at all. Our relationship is just what it is. There's no game, no power play, no competition, no nothing. It wonderful and really freaky at the same time. ^_^ But I think I'm starting to really like it this way.

Although I'm loath to admit it, I'm such a girl, too. ^_^
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