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I dunno, but....

I just put two and two together and although they don't exactly equal four, they might just. I'm really hoping this is just a coincidence.

Let's look at the math involved....

Two = woke up two days ago and the left side of my tongue had been chewed to smithereens, but only a small part of it. I thought maybe it was an allergy or mutant cold sore. It's not. It's just a bunch of tastebuds that have been destroyed and are swelling in protest.

Two = it hurt to move my body when I tried walking around two days ago. I thought maybe it was from playing the DDR game I bought, but I hadn't played it for two days before the day in question.

Add these together and I think they equal....

Four = I had a seizure in my sleep two nights ago. Add to the equation the fact that I woke up at a weird time with lots of random crap in my bed. I had my cellphone (not too random), one of my three alarm clocks (wouldn't have been random except that it hadn't gone off yet and yet I was clasping it to my chest), and both of my grade books (they were under the covers next to me). Wtf?

I can understand the cellphone thing because I keep it in my left slipper (I leave my slippers by my bed at night) in case Shinya calls or text messages me. (I leave it in my slipper because that way I can hear if Shinya calls, and I'll remember to bring it to work that way 'cuz I'll feel it when I put on my slippers to putter around my apartment and get ready for the day.) So it makes sense that I may have grabbed it while half-asleep in an attempt to email Shinya. That I get. What I don't get are the other two things. I only get out of bed when my alarms go off. And sometimes not even then. That I would get up and grab an alarm that hadn't gone off yet (especially since none of them had gone off) makes no sense. Which means that I may have been wandering around in pre-seizure shock, collecting things, when I grabbed my alarm clock (and it's the obnoxious green one that I despise that plays children's songs with dinky chimes) and lay back down in bed, clutching it to my chest. The weirdest thing though is my grade books. Somehow I managed to get up, go into the next room, rifle through my backpack (not an easy feat), produce said grade books, place them under my covers, and get back into bed. All without waking up. I have a theory as to the thought-processes that went into getting those books, but the fact that I was able to get them without remembering a single minute of the ordeal worries me. I hate to say it, but it really does look like I might have had a seizure.

Now, it can't have been a very bad one because 1) I woke up that morning and could more or less function, and 2) my body hurt (even today) but not nearly as badly as it did after the seizure I had over winter break. I was in pain for a good three days over winter break, but I only hurt for a day and a half with this one. Assuming I had one at all. It's kind of a scary thought, though.

Reasons to not live alone: if something really bad happens to you and you need help, you're just fucked.

But even assuming I did have another seizure, I don't know what I can do about it. Can I go see a doctor? Yeah, right, just to have them use words with me that I don't know in Japanese--and probably wouldn't in English--and just waste time I didn't have? And when would I go? I work all day, every day. And I don't know of any clinics that are open on weekends. So that's a solid dead-end.

Guess all I can do is hope I don't have one that makes me late for work....

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liquidrunning
Apr. 11th, 2005 10:56 am (UTC)
Meep! It's scary to think of you being by yourself and possibly having a seizure during the night. I hope that it doesn't happen again. :(

*good thoughts of not-having-seizures to you*
alexakaruda
Apr. 12th, 2005 07:14 pm (UTC)
Yeah--the downside of living alone is that there's no one to monitor you. >_<

Thanks for the healing vibes!!!
impishlaugh
Apr. 11th, 2005 12:10 pm (UTC)
That is really crazy! Your gradebook and an annoying alarm clock? In bed with you? And you don't remember a THING? That would freak me out if it happened to me, so I understand your feelings.

This is scary, and I really think you should go to the doctor. There HAS to be an English-speaking doctor somewhere nearby. After all, doctors are usually, uh, smart and can do cool stuff like be bilingual. And you HAVE to be able to take a day off from work for a doctor's appointment. I know that a lot of the people you work with are schmucks, but won't they let you go get medical attention when you need it? They don't want you to have a seizure at SCHOOL, do they?

I'm sort of dealing with a similar situation lately; my heart is acting up all crazy-like. It's bad. I'd been resisting seeing the doctor because I didn't want to take time off of work, I didn't want to make a big deal over it, and I was dreading the frustration of being told they can't help me... again.

But Matt and my mom convinced me (Uh, beat it into my head) that health is the most important thing. So I made the damn appointment. And now, since I care about you, I am going to try to convince you of the same thing. What if it happened again and you got hurt? What if they can help you? What if I nagged you forEVER until you saw a doctor? *grin*

That's the problem with friends: They CARE. :-)
gorgeousjoe
Apr. 11th, 2005 01:23 pm (UTC)
(That's funny, I was just going to say that it reminded me of you and your heart condition, honey.)

Anyways, Abby, please go seek medical attention of some sort very soon. I understand your concerns, and that it might be a phenomenal pain in the ass, but if you're having seizures, then that kind of (read: completely) takes precedence over your other obligations. I hope you're doing well.
alexakaruda
Apr. 12th, 2005 07:25 pm (UTC)
Thanks for the kind words. I'll try to go to the doctor's next week. I don't think there's much I can do, but, like Jen said, it's probably worth a shot.
liquidrunning
Apr. 11th, 2005 05:00 pm (UTC)
Ditto to what Matt and Jen said, Abby. I didn't want to nag, but since they've broken the ice, I'll nag with them. ;) I know you have a busy schedule, and I'm sure it's a big hassle when you have trouble communicating with the doctor, but your health is so important! Considering that you did have a seizure not that long ago, it's very disconcerting if you're seeing signs of something similar happening again. You really should try to make time to get to a doctor! Hopefully your work will be understanding. If not, make them be understanding -- teachers have to have sick days just like everyone else, and you've got an extremely valid medical excuse!
alexakaruda
Apr. 12th, 2005 07:27 pm (UTC)
You caring friend types all attack in packs, don't you?! ^_^ I'll try to go next Tuesday or Wednesday and see what they suggest I do. They'll probably say something asinine like, "When you feel like you're about to have a seizure, go to a clinic immediately." I hate it when they say stuff like that. >_<
alexakaruda
Apr. 12th, 2005 07:22 pm (UTC)
Caring friends?! Goddammit, what's hell going to spring on me next?! ^_^

The biggest problem I have isn't with the language, it's with the doctors themselves. I've dealt with all kinds of medical problems here in Japanese, and I haven't really had any trouble. The only thing is the way they handle stuff here. A co-worker explained to me that the Japanese are fabulous at treatment, but they blow when it comes to diagnosis. Which seems pretty accurate to me. When the doctor finally figured out that, no, the millions of antibiotics they put me on weren't working, thanksomuch, the stuff they gave me at the end was AWESOME! It killed everything and then some. (Actually, my lymph nodes are swollen again, but I'll deal with that sometimes next week, probably.) But since I'm not epileptic, there isn't much that can be done. Even my American doctors agreed that I just need to try to not get stressed. Which is ridiculous. That's like saying, "You need to not think about anything ever again." Yeah, sure.

So I'm not sure that going to the doctor here would help much. I'll probably go next Tuesday or Wednesday, but I think it'll mostly be a waste of time. What can they do? They can't give me meds because I'm not epileptic, so what else is left? (Aside from that dumb thing about stress.) >_<

Anyway, thanks for being a caring friend. As annoying as you people are. ^_^
alexakaruda
Apr. 12th, 2005 07:24 pm (UTC)
Oh, and one more thing: I'm sorry to hear that your heart has been acting up! I know how scary/awful that is. I hope they actually catch a really good one on tape this time. One they can get an accurate diagnosis with. Halter monitors suck, but they're better than they used to be and anything's better than a messed-up heart. >_<

O-daiji-ni! (Japanese for, "Get better soon!")
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alexakaruda
Apr. 12th, 2005 07:32 pm (UTC)
You were always the big sleepwalker in the family. ^_^ I still like the story about you getting lost in the TV room in the old house. Dad found you standing in the middle of the room, crying, because you couldn't find the bathroom. ^_^

I've never really been a sleepwalker. When I sleep, I SLEEP. The most suspicious thing was the fact that I bite my tongue really badly and didn't wake up. It still hurts, and I bit it more than three days ago. I know I sleep hard, but I don't think I sleep THAT hard. And the fact that I bit it in exactly the same place during my seizure on the plane makes me wonder.

Anyway, I'll talk with Mom and Dad about it when I make my weekly call.

Sorry about your roommate situation. You just seem to get one stinker after the other, don't you? (Although I'd probably be a little weirded out that my roommate was clutching my boyfriend's picture....) ^_^ How's your current one going? Hope it's going well.
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