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Wanna See My Boy?

So I've been in a funk and haven't done anything I wanted to do. I'm sorely depressed and I can't get out of my apartment. I don't want to do anything. I don't want to answer any of the millions of old emails I have piled up in my inbox. I don't especially want to even write this, really. I need to break out of this state and dry my wings in the sun. I need to stop staying up to 5am and getting up at 3pm. I need to change out of my pj's.

Well, at least my teeth are clean. (Sorry, Ass, I just couldn't pass that one up.) ^_^

But, anyway, I'm bored, so I thought I'd post the only two clear pictures I have of Shinya. They're not all that clear, actually, and the light behind him makes it look like he has a weird haircut (I took them with my cellphone the day before he left, so I didn't really have the time or inclination to make them works of art), and he's actually much cuter than he looks in these pictures, but I like them anyway.

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Actually, weirdly enough, just looking at those pictures made me feel a lot better. I'm sure nobody else can tell, but I see the light in his eyes that gleams, "I love you," and the energy in his smile that betrays, "Being with you makes me happy." Sigh. I'm so in love.

Isn't he a cutie? I'm such a lucky girl, in spite of the fact that he's off in Tokyo. We talked for 2 and a half hours on the phone the day before last. He gets nervous about saying flirty things and loving things and that makes me nervous and that in turn makes the things he says mean that much more. When he said, "You're wonderful," I knew it was absolute truth coming from him. It's so hard for him to say stuff like that--he is Japanese, after all--so when he does, I know it's for real. And even when he doesn't say stuff, I know what he feels. It's funny how words can be so cheap. But it's his awkwardness that makes his words worth more, somehow.


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Mar. 29th, 2005 10:18 pm (UTC)
he's pretty! Yay you're both so cute!
Mar. 30th, 2005 12:32 am (UTC)
Isn't he pretty? This is a first for me, dating a boy who's actually really cute. ^_^ I've never dated a pretty boy before, and I bet my parents think I'm making him up or something. ^_^
Mar. 30th, 2005 02:06 am (UTC)
Dude, he is HOT. Good catch. :D

Though you're a damn good catch too. ;)

Mar. 30th, 2005 07:33 am (UTC)
Teehee! ^_^ Thank you!

I think you're beautiful, yourself! The first time I met you, I thought, "Damn, what I wouldn't give to have her nose and eyes...." >_<
Mar. 30th, 2005 01:09 pm (UTC)
I like his strong chin and eyebrows. He looks like a MAN. And ooh, is he wearing pink? I love-love-love when men are secure enough to wear pink. That's hot!

You're twitterpated, and I like it. It suits you.
Mar. 31st, 2005 06:28 am (UTC)
He looks like a MAN. Doesn't he just? Most Osaka boys are twerpy-scrawny and have bad attitudes, but he's a MAN without being a DICK. He's big and strong and yet so sweet and shy and sincere. And he has the bestest eyebrows. ::swoon:: You're right, I am utterly twitterpated. Just thinking about him makes me all happy and shy and girly and silly. Dunno if it suits me or not, but it's just the way I am around him. Sigh. I haven't been happy-giddy-girly like this in SOOOO long, and it's a good feeling to have back again. I thought for the longest time that my twitterpation bone was broken, but I guess it was just taking a break.

And, yes, he wears that pink shirt all the time! And he totally gets away with it! I didn't even notice he regularly wore a pink shirt until one day when I was wearing a pink shirt that was exactly the same color and I thought, "Uh-oh, we're wearing matching clothes!" ^_^ I agree with you: guys who are secure enough to wear pink--especially if you fail to notice it's pink because they carry it off so well--are to die for. Eep! I have it so bad for this boy!
Mar. 30th, 2005 08:52 pm (UTC)
I can imagine you guys looking cute together. So cute, in fact, that I'll ignore the teeth comment :)

usual obligatory question, when are you going to be in nashville next, blahblahblah
Mar. 31st, 2005 06:21 am (UTC)
Ugh, usual obligatory answer: Probably mid-August. I'll be heading to Ohio at the very end of August/beginning of September. And then the grad school madness begins. But I'll definitely be home for Christmas this year, sans15-hour flight and jetlag. Yay!
Mar. 31st, 2005 06:33 pm (UTC)
damn. christmas it is!
Mar. 31st, 2005 08:45 pm (UTC)
When are you going to be in Nashville next?
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